Lying to self

There are many times when we lie to ourselves.. 

When we lose something we give hope to ourselves by lying. Saying that it will be alright. Things won't change. It won't affect us.. But we know things do change. Things have an effect on us be it passive.

There are times when we lie to ourselves to give us hope. Trying to be optimistic. Things we know won't happen. But we want them to. And we live in a false hope. Just to overcome the pain.

There are also times when we lie to ourselves. They are the times of compromise. Things we don't like. We do. Be it pretence in liking something for someone else or saying things they want to hear or thinking we are changing and liking things as time goes. 

Lying is something superficial. Sometimes we may not even know we are lying or not, to someone as we may have been lying about it to ourselves for so long that we start believing it as true.

We feel by lying to ourselves we are becoming stronger. But, Lying doesn't just make us weaker in fact it mystifies things which were clear to us once. 

Confusion increases when we lie to ourselves.

Sometimes we lie so much that it becomes a big maze for us with no way out.

For wiping things clear, for reviving this confusion, we need to first stop lying to ourselves.

When we start accepting the truth then only we can become strong. I won't call truth bitter as it is the perspective of someone which makes things bitter. In reality, truth gives us clarity. Truth gives us strength. When we accept it fully. It becomes our will. And we become free.

Lying may seem like the easy way out. But it's just an escape from non acceptance.

It's difficult to understand and accept the truth. But only truth can keep our beliefs strong. And give that strength we need and we should possess.

Knowing and accepting the truth are two different things. Sometimes we just know things but we have our own way of accepting.

Just think next time is it the truth you are accepting or the false part. 

Keep thinking!!

Saying byes...

Putting off the phone while a nice conversation is on.. And need to put it out just because of some other thing to do is really disappointing. 

After a talking for so long, still feel like 5 more minutes. Still 5 more minutes!

After a spending lot of time together when we reach that point maybe at station or at the point when we have to part our ways. We stay there standing for hours talking to each other until someone either calls us or we realize its too late already.

Leaving that moment, those talks which feel like they should go on. Just being together for as long as possible. That feeling of 'I have to say bye now but I don't want to' is undesirable yet it makes us realize how much we mean to each other.

Once someone said to me 'I look very ugly when I am leaving!'. It took me sometime to figure it was a compliment! 

Living in the moment is feeling alive.

And letting these moments go is heartbreaking.

Time goes so fast and you keep wanting for more.

Einstein's theory of relativity!

But those moments you don't want to let go are the most special ones. So keep'em alive by thinking about them. And those memories you can relive again and again. Be it happy or sad or funny or angry or quiet or all of them. These small moments in which actually feel alive make our life. So live those moments fully. Without thinking about it's time to go or anything else. Just be there completely! 

Maybe that moment won't come again. Life goes on. We feel there is lot of time in our hands but it is slipping every second. We can only catch it if we stay completely in those moments. Life may not give you a second chance. So whatever it is do it and live it today!

Keep thinking!!

Cloudy Morning!

It's Friday.. And I was asked to come in the morning shift today. Getting up at 6 am after doing evening shifts everday! I slept earlier than usual yesterday and got up on time.

My eyes opened to the sound of alarm not realizing at first what time is it.. Seemed very dark. Then I remembered. It's morning shift. 

Quickly got up, put the water on heat. Now, that's one thing I usually do. Heat up the water for bath, be it any season. 

After a quick shower. Got ready. Realized no one home for a drop. Quickly deided have to eat something. Feeling too hungry. Grabbed a bite. Put my bag on the shoulder. Closed the door. After stepping out, I noticed it had just rained. After coming out the gate, it was still raining. Drizzling!!

Soft soft rain drops falling over me. I am in my casuals so not worried about clothes getting wet. Fragrance of wet mud, leaves fill me up. I start walking on the wet roads. Looking at the sky, completely gray. Shops all closed. Not many people or vehicles on the road. A very good morning walk! I could hear the birds chirping.. Cuckoo, sparrows, and crow. For some reason I never hated the sound of crow. 

The air so fresh! Temperature low.
For a person, who gets out in scorching heat everyday,after this long summer, this was so soothing.

The drizzling rain added to the beauty. After about 10mins I reached my stop. Made it to the bus on time.

And now, writing my thoughts on this beautiful cloudy morning!

Welcome rains! 

Keep thinking!!

Chocolate in chocolate, ice cream, cupcake, slice cake, cake, pastry.

Chocolate is the most satiating thing to have!

I am a die heart lover of chocolates. Especially, the milky chocolates with the correct blend of sweetness and creaminess. The ones which do not stick to your teeth, just melt in your mouth. Taste sweet not bitter. Chocolate is really a mood reviver. Also, chocolate ice cream is another option. When it comes to beat the heat and quench your craving for sweetness. A chocolate ice cream is the best! I don't know why I would try any other flavor if I am getting chocolate!

Chocolate is also known to be your substitute for sex! Imagine the level of satisfaction it must provide ;) :p

Be it a very emotional period you are going through or the achievements you wanna celebrate or just a casual walk.. A chocolate ice cream would always be the best company to be with. 

Indulging yourself you can never do it fully without chocolate in it!

Adding the chocolate syrup in milk everyday or pouring it over the vanilla ice cream, pastry or any other sweet you are having. Chocolate adds another dimension to the dish. It's like the tomato sauce of sweets! :):):)

I know a few people who aren't fans of chocolates but then there are also people who hate the rain or movies or pretty dresses.

Enjoying yourself to the fullest by indulgence, you can only do when you love something truely. 

Whatever you like eating, or doing, go, like it a little more and enjoy it the way you do it, while eating a chocolate cupcake or a simple chocolate slice cake.

Umm.. It melts as soon as it touches your tongue. 

Well, even after being a chocolate lover, I will have my very specific likes and dislikes. Like, I don't like peanut butter, so no chocolates containing that.

Absolute No to Ferraro Rocher. 

But more yeses to five star, gems, milk chocolate, melody, those box of milk chocolates you get as a gift (like in the image above) and many other.

Just feel happier with every bite you take and feel the sweetness in your tongue. 

And yes, I am the person who will drink hot chocolate in a coffee shop. Indulging in chocolate is safer and healthier than coffee!

Keep eating more chocolate stuff just don't forget to rinse after you have it. Regular visits to dentist and you are sorted!

Keep indulging in what you like and remember to like it even more every time you have it!

Keep thinking!!

Avatar

Avatar is on TV. I watch it every time it's running. Saw twice in theater before. Still couldn't get enough of it.

I remember as a child I used to feel I went into another world after I fell asleep. While watching Avatar it felt my imagination turned into reality.

It's not just a movie. It's an experience.

Avatar takes us in a new world of connections. Tsehelyu-the bond. The trees, plants, horses, birds, dogs, insects,flowers,fruits.
Pandora. Floating mountains, home tree, eywa.
It's so interesting to see how each and every living being is connected with one another.

Choosing your own Ikran to fly and he chooses you. Flies all its life with only one master.
What a thought!

Neytiri - the female lead. She is my favorite character in the movie. I am in love with her. Her personality. The way she teaches Jake, is betrayed, gets angry, fights so bravely till the very extent, hates Jake and loves him. I wondered who played her character in real as avatars were derived from humans.
It was Zoe saldana. Apt!

What touched me the most was the background score especially when the home tree falls. It brings a very sad feeling. A losing feeling. Feels awful. Touches your heart... that tune! 

Sometimes you need to do the most insane thing. Toruk makto!!!

It's funny how by the end of it we are against our own species and feel like Avatar. The journey is so well portrayed to us. Seems so real. The glowing land in the dark. Every detail captured so accurately.

An experience of a lifetime. I wonder how technology and human brain can be so powerful to engage us and make us feel emotions. Through music, visuals and a storyline.

I am glad there wasn't a book I read about Avatar before watching the movie. I could experience every bit of it.

Avatar teaches us how to live. To work in teams, protect nature, celebrate life, fight for what is right is Right. It gives us hope, dream and imagination. Makes us sad, happy, angry, broken, wonder, fight, fall, win.

A movie like no other movie. An experience of the fictional reality. A perfect world you want to be born in. Want to fly. Want to live.

A liberating feeling towards the end. An emotional journey. Great piece of art!

Keep thinking!!

Moonlight.. on full moon night

While coming back home tonight I couldn't get my eyes off one thing that was shining brightest in the sky.. The Moon.

Its full moon night and moon seemed so big and near to the earth. I could see the craters so clearly on it's surface. 

So bright, cool, big and wonderful the moon is!

I could just go on and on staring at it. The way its light brighten the night sky. Its light reflecting on the clouds. Giving the clouds a shadowy effect.

The moon is a great companion for travel. You can just look and even talk to it and share your deepest thoughts.

Maybe imagine someone else looking at it , at the same time, smilingly. Or, asking the moon, if it could see that someone.

The full moon took away the darkness and spread cool in this otherwise hot weather.

Beautiful and calm. It's been always there watching you grow since you were a tiny tot. Wherever you go it followed you. Like a friend who never leaves your side. Like the best listener it listens to your every word constantly looking into your eyes.

Hides in the clouds and comes up bright again. 

Its just so much fun looking at the moon and clouds and stars. Things we don't notice lie just above our heads. Showing us how tiny we are compared to the whole wide world.

Our problems, our issues which we make so big are just so small compared to the vastness of the universe. We just need to look up once in a while to know how small we really are. 

Keep thinking!!

                         

Compliment you

What is it about compliments which we always seek for?

Compliments is what everyone likes and desires.

Why are we so desperate to hear them?

Is it just the words which we want to hear or we want to feel appreciated. Be it for looks, clothes or work we do we feel delighted when someone says even the slightest of a complimentary mark.

I think it's about the individuality in us individuals which wants to be noticed.

Many a times who it comes from doesn't matter but for what it does matters.

While some other times, we long to hear those sweet words from that one person and everyone else seems to be noticing it but him/her.

Be it a new hairstyle, new pair of jeans you bought or the new song you learned to play. We want someone to say its nice or looks superb.

What's the fun of shopping if no one knows its new!

Although each one of us smile the brightest when someone says a kind word but for others, even when we do,it may not be direct.
Gossiping behind your back and appreciating too behind your back.

Why don't we say upfront and make each other's day!!

Many a time we notice there is something different or that shirt really suits your friend but won't say out loud.

Why do we not be loud about the good things..?

Well in the movies its the lyricist who give words to those feelings. We cannot be poetic but still take some inspiration.

Expressing in just emojis is becoming the new trend.

Language is the best invention by man I believe.

Use of words really touches heart.
We feel them deeper and remember longer.

So go ahead add more words to your monosyllabic sentences. Express a little more and feel a lot more.

Keep thinking!!